Title: Bad Mix 
Author: Dana Doggett 
Feedback: danadoggett@yahoo.com
Date: August 2, 2006 
Rating: PG-13 (use of the "F" word) 
Category: Doggett POV, drabble 
Word Count: 116 
Timeline: soon after Luke's death, 1993
Disclaimer: In my hands these characters really aren't the characters that surfer created, 
they're better than that, they like to explore more extreme possibilities.

Beta: Alexa

Summary: Musings of John Doggett soon after the death of his son in 1993.
Dedication: To smackalalala, this drabble is for you.

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There it sits in all its fucking glory - the empty glass. Barbara's going to be pissed, but I 
don't care. This is how I'm dealing with it. The alcohol numbs the pain. 

Luke is gone. There's nothing either of us can do about it. She longs for comfort. I long 
for alcohol. I long for my own pathetic life to end. I blame myself.

My revolver sits next to me. I can already smell the gunpowder. I empty all rounds but 
one. Locked and loaded, one bullet. I spin the cylinder.

The muzzle is cold against my temple. I pull the trigger.

Nothing.

Monica would say this is a sign that there's something worth living for.

END

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